a power to spite
The first time you manifested your quirk, you almost turned blind. The only thing that remained since the accident was a small scar on your right eye. This made you hate your quirk for a while, as you couldn’t control it and it reminded you of this incident right away.
It was the first weakness you ever sought to display.
You’ve been following the ideals of one special hero, someone who ought to be your biggest inspiration in your childhood. But within the time, you forgot his words, his ideals and what he once said to keep you inspired, and you were trying your own thing.
“As long as you got a manly spirit, then Quirks don’t even matter.”
This was the only quote that you looked up for, and you kept living for that ideal that this hero once got to you.
An inspiration, a reason, a goal. You wanted to be a hero, just as your idol, Crimson Riot, a hero who has a similar power as yours.
You were trying your best, you trained your body with all your heart and your soul. You have a manly heart, and a quirk people would hopefully remember one day. You’ve seen it all, you’ve done it all. You’re your own heroism, inspired by a great man, who probably got through the same path as yours.
to become a hero, it is not easy.
Impersonating justice, helping the weak— that’s what you wanted to display at your old school. But people didn’t take you seriously, they were making a fool out of you, they made you doubt yourself and your qualities.
heroism has changed within the years.
Heroes are more about entertainment, approval ratings and fame. That’s what your classmate said and compared another classmate of yours to that. You started to compare your power to the one of the classmate. It made you look at your power being just boring and dull, nothing extraordinary.
"jump in and do it!"
The presence of a somewhat villainous creature made you question your qualities for a hero once again. You have witnessed a few people from your middle school getting bothered by that creature, crying in fear and agony.
What would you do?
Jump in and do it! You want to be a hero after all!
But you didn’t. Maybe your fear was coming at you? Maybe you would not have the potential for it? Whatever changed your mind, it showed that you were not ready, that you were weak.
You were not a man.
Or anything else.
a manly heart is a life led without regret
You kept doubting yourself, and everyone thought that you would not have the potential to become a hero. Your quirk wasn’t worth it, right?
Have you forgotten what Crimson Riot told you?
Heroes feel fear. Fear is, after all, a basic human feeling. Everyone feels fear.
Sometimes, heroes are not able to save people’s lives, but that doesn’t make them less heroic. Instead you learn from your mistakes. A hero needs to have limits, a hero shouldn’t be perfect to the core.
It’s the attitude you carry with you in your soul.
You are young, and your life has just started. You heroism has just started. So you need to go and get out, and be the hero everyone has been waiting for.
You tried your best, and for now it seems like you have succeeded. You’re now a hero in training at U.A, you left your insecure self behind and changed into a better look. You wanted to stick out, so you styled your hair every morning so that they would look like spikes. It was your new “you”, the manly you.
It was a relief to be accepted and find people that can relate with you and who you can mess with. You found your friends, people that trust you and you can trust. It’s certain that you want to be the best version of yourself.
But sometimes, old memories and feelings come back. You have witnessed Fatgum and Suneater, your senpai suffering from Rappa’s attacks. It got you back to the sentiments of being weak, and your insecurity just came back at you.
Not now. Oh, now is not the right time.
You have tried your best, with all you can; with the power you have made your own and express with such greatness and manliness. A power you have improved on your own.
You showed yourself who thought you were so pathetic.
And now, you’re not just a hero,
you’re a true man, acknowledged even by an enemy.
You have been in this place for one year now. You have learned many things and you wish that you would go back home. However, this place was nice; it made you grow and understand yourself. Your manliness has not perished, your crimson spirit remains the same.
Just a little more time.