for my whole life, i have been told what to do and how to act. for the first time in a while, i am finally on my own, i am able to make my own choices. of course over this time i have made mistakes, some times through no choice of mine, but i have done them. i have to live with the thoughts and memories that i am the one who committed those crimes. i am the owner of the hands that have killed. this life i am trying to make now, i am trying to start over. i am trying to be good. i am trying to make a difference.
the young avengers have helped me with that. well, mostly kate. she has helped me realize a lot really. however i would not be who i am if i did not have my past.
i was born to two kree warriors, captain glory and star splendor, though born is a casual term. kree families are not traditional in the earth way, they do not coddle their young and i was the same. before i was even born, my genes were altered with cockroach dna and with nanobot technology in the hope that i would be a better form of kree soldiers than ever before. it was true, i was. however, i was not forced into fighting because in my world, the kree and skrull war was over. i was ensigned to the 18th kree diplomatic gestalt to protect the peace and maintain the cease-fire between the races.
every thing felt normal. i had a girlfriend, merree, and i worked with my parents and we maintained the relative peace. until we crashed with some astro-gods and we needed to return home for repairs. we never made it home. this was the first moment where i experienced that the multiverse was not nice. it was a cruel world and i learned that first hand as our ship was shot down and upon crashing i awoke to find that every one on board was dead besides me. merree, my dad, my mom, the rest of the crew. they were all dead, vaporized by some earthling who wished for powers from the ship's cosmic core.
it was that moment when i vowed vengeance upon the earth. dr. midas was my first target, the one who shot the ship down. despite the ships' artificial intelligence telling me to lay low, i could not just stand by while the death of my friends and family remain unspoken of. my plans are stopped momentarily by one of the ship's prisoners escaping. i was always told to fix my messes. the hexus was easy to destroy, the social parasite coming undone by it's own secrets. however my mission to stop midas is thwarted once more.
this time by a woman. a woman who turns out to be midas' daughter, obliette. she easily beat me and holds me captive for her father, but i am struck by her beauty. she said that she was unassuming, but she is stunning. it's funny now, to look back and see what a fool i was for a pretty face. i still am, perhaps that is the one thing i will never truly learn no matter how many mistakes i make because of it. it is because of these feelings for her that have somehow convinced her to turn against her father who had lied to her for so long.
it is with her help that allows me to defeat dr. midas, well, really she actually killed him. but it is her help that i make it back to my crashed ship and evade the s.h.i.e.l.d operatives for so long. it is futile in the end, i end up captured and sent to one of their prisons, the cube. again, i vow to make earth a part of the kree empire and take it over. all while the lovely oubliette champions for my release. however her reign of "terror" as my captors called it ends just as quickly as it begins as she's captured and sent to the raft, another of their prisons.
i hear of this... civil war between their superpowered beings. it is dumb. why would they war with themselves when there is a lesser creature roaming their midst? humans do not cherish them, so why argue and fall to bloodshed over them. i did not see a reason behind their need for super being registration and yet i was forced into their war. i was brain washed and lead to believe i was a vassal at their disposal to do as they pleased. i know now that that was not me, however i still remember. i still feel the way my hands have snapped bones and bodies and taken the life from too many too count.
it is one mission i remember, when i first encountered kate bishop and the young avengers of earth. that was one i won't forget. there were two skrull with their group and i took one of them out before capturing the other and the ones that i was tasked with capturing. i was supposed to bring the whole group of teens to order, take them to s.h.i.e.l.d so that they would be registered. i am not really sure what my actual task was anymore, just that i was supposed to take them. however, the being they called the vision lost his arm in my chest, and another of their member's ended up creating a feedback within my body that caused the warden's mind-control to end.
it was then that i took control of the cube and took the power away from the warden. i did not know what the purpose of the warden was, but i knew that i was in control now. it was because of this control that i was able to assist s.h.i.e.l.d in their fight against the skrull invasion. it was here where i abandoned the moniker of 'marvel boy' in light of taking on the name of one of my predecessors, captain marvel. the captain was a great kree hero, one spoken of for ages before my time and ages later. the skrull invasion was over and i returned to the cube, my kingdom in this earth.
it was not long before another was calling at my door, asking for help. this time, a norman osborn was asking me to join his avengers team. it had been a while since i had had the comfort of another and karla provided that. she was a tease, telling me how her powers came from a kree crystal, only for her to show me and i did not recognize it as a kree object. she was my first time with a human woman and she is the one who told me that this avengers team was nothing but a bunch of criminals playing pretend. i was ashamed to have gotten caught up with them. these were no heroes.
i tried to warn the other's, the x-men or the avengers, anyone who would listen, but no one would. i was lucky to find some old kree communicators that i contacted the kree supreme intelligence with. they told me i was now the 'protector' of earth due to the skrull's invasion leaving the planet vulnerable. it was with this title and the nega-band equipment that i was able to prevent the dark avengers, the group of criminals playing hero, from doing anything too harmful.
i wore the title of protector for a while. i even joined the real avengers and became a part of the group of heroes that actually cared for the planet. it was on a quest to contain the phoenix force that i was reunited with mar-vell, the great captain marvel, the hero of krees. once again i was under the control by someone else, this time by my trusted hero. and i tried to kill those i fought with - again the avengers were my targets. however, under the urging of the supreme intelligence, i took the phoenix force to the kree empire - to my home, hala. i haven't see hala in ages and the sight was definitely one for sore eyes, yet at the trust of the avengers.
and it turns out the intelligence lied to me as well. they did not want to help the earth beat the phoenix and that was inconsolable. this place that i had worked so hard to protect, that they had called me the protector of. they wanted me to just sit by and pretend that it wasn't being destroyed by a being that i could stop? that was unbearable.
however cutting ties meant cutting ties and no matter how much i vowed to fix things, to make things right, i was alone. the avengers did not want me, the kree did not want me. i was not welcome on earth or on hala. even ms. marvel was against me despite our shared heritage and powers. i was stripped of the nega-bands, of the title of 'protector' and left on my own.
i found my way around the threat from earth. a satellite base outside of the earth's orbit that i now called home for i had no home. hala was not home and earth could not be home. it was on a short trip to earth where i did not allow for myself to be detected, that i met her again. kate bishop of earth. kate bishop of the young avengers. she is beautiful and one again i am struck by her looks. it does not take me long to win her affections though she is quick to admit that she wanted to know me as well.
she takes the time to introduce me to the rest of the young avengers. to teddy altman, the half kree-half skrull changeling. to william kaplan, the twin son of the scarlet witch. to tommy shepard, the other son of the scarlet witch. to america chavez, the strong girl here to protect the world. it is a ragtag team of heroes, ones that have seen their own troubles - some times at the hand of myself. however they were willing to forgive me and so i tried to prove myself worthy.
it was magic from william kaplan that caused the mother parasite to infect the adults and cause us to band together with a kid version of loki. it was the patriot, not-patriot, being that took tommy and introduced the team to david alleyne. it was loki's trickery that caused everything to happen as it did. i broke up with kate after hearing that oubliette was still alive. that she wanted to be together still. it was when loki accepted his true self that the allusions disappeared. oubliette was not real, merree was not real, annie was not real. not even loki's leah was real. none of them were real besides loki and not-patriot and the mother parasite. however it was clear that i was not over oubliette and that kate was hurt by the way i had tried to confess this to her.
even after some time away from our relationship, i still realized how much our break up hurt. kate bishop had taught me a lot about what it meant to be myself. to live the life that i wanted, not one that was dictated for me. however it is too late now to ask for what i have already given up and i saw that at the party as kate kissed tommy as the clock struck twelve on new year's eve. even then she was teaching me a lesson, one that hurts, but that i needed to know.
i was noh-varr of the kree race. i was one of the kree diplomatic gestalts. i was marvel boy. i was captain marvel. i was protector. i was an avenger. i was a young avenger. now i am just noh-varr, the kree boy trying to learn about who i am and my place in this new world. the multiverse was never kind and just when i had thought that things were going smoothly and that i was learning, i have to start over. perhaps this new world will open my eyes even further. perhaps this new world will allow me to be successful without my mistakes of my past.
i am noh-varr and i wish to find myself.